A thing done and a thing made ♥

Timing.

2011-10-19T00:07:00.001+11:00

Being the typical gemini, i do admit that i have a lil bit of split personality. and to elaborate that more, i am trying to say that sometimes i am mastered on covering up my emotional but sometimes i am not.

i watched one of this Gossip Girl episode, is talking about how Chuck and Blair, how they are have been through much and when Blair has met her Mr. Prince, Chuck decided to let her go. 'There's a differences between great love and right love. i have to let you go and i will always love you".

Yes, there's a difference between great great love, a heart aching with a lot of sparkles and fire works; and the right love, which is so full of joy, sweetness and security.

which one will you go for?

of course, the main point that i am writing about this, is while i was watching this episode, it strikes my heart. how important is the timing issue, for two difference person get along together; no matter how much they love each other.

been through, done that, all by myself.

i, am a girl that is still waiting for my white prince to come. although how much people are saying love is so fragile, that makes you sad, makes you worried, and no i am happy when i'm single too. yet still, a lil bit hope is still right in my heart; either waiting for the perfect match Libra, or a macho guy that can pretext me, or someone who has a total different personality than me.

i love this quote

' love is like a silhouette in dreams'

love, is like a cameo, an ambiguous, fragile image.

我的点点滴滴

2011-10-03T17:33:00.000+11:00

好久好久都没有在这里留下痕迹了，很多事情在一瞬间发生，我也没有时间去理会。
真的是剧终人散，刚刚认识的朋友，熟络了，久走了。
认识了很久的知心朋友，也这样的走了。
参加了不少的farewell, 哭也哭得泪都干掉了。

既然开始写了，就把一些照片也放上吧。

～merdeka event 2011 at Crown.
很多从KL特地飞来表演的朋友，很高兴认识你们。

～和朋友的聚会也变多了
开始领悟到因为缘份，才让我们（朋友）相遇。

～jo先生的生日

～第二年没有家人的中秋节。
心情还好，因为有朋友们陪我一起度过

～到了烹饪时刻，
因为对自己有要求，吃的食物可以不好看，但是不能不好吃。哈哈

洋葱炒蛋，辣椒虾

长豆炒饭，咸菜豆腐汤

自制韩国冬粉

本身最满意的卤肉饭！

越南米卷

～对了，本小姐吧修长的头发剪短了，收不了长时间的吹干和梳洗。

然后就到了phui yinn 小姐的生日

其他的有时间在放吧，
Gold Coast 和一些拍摄照片

My 23rd birthday

2011-08-25T21:20:00.001+10:00

To stop myself from falling asleep at 9pm, I would like to blog about my ~~forever 21~~ birthday, aherm.... is 23 birthday.
Brother and cousin Nicole has flew all the way to Aussie land to celebrate with me, as both of them are having long holidays and wanted to get a getaway.

Without starting to posting up all the pictures, I would like to say, THANK YOU darling Jiali to come all the way with my Tiramisu cake at 12am sharp while I was dying my hair to have a better look for tomorrow's dinner.
obviously, I am really ugly. So i am not going to post that pic. thank you.

ready dressing up to go for dinner.

Had birthday dinner at Nobu, Crown.

and after the dinner, we were supposed to rush to the club, but everyone were saying birthday girl should have the luck to put on bets!
while i came out from the casino, Sophia babe and others were waiting for me with a birthday cake! thank you for the cake.

爱你，就要放你走，因为机会过了，感觉也会跟着走。

2011-08-10T18:06:00.001+10:00

太多太多的事情都发生在这几个月里。
有时候真的会不知所措，很懊恼为什么自己会遇上这种人和这种事。
不完全能责怪他人，因为可能自己的以前会让人有了戒备心。
但人就很喜欢那这些理由来当借口，不是把自己的幸福断送掉，而是没有想清楚，看看大的画面来断定真的是要什么。

兜兜转转，我也看清楚了事实。
而人家一而再，再而三的还要停在同一个步伐上？

我不想了，我也累了。
该说的，也说了。
旁观者都很清晰的看到了你的真心，
反而当局者也不用多加说些什么。

人就是这样犯贱，没有了才来后悔。
但是，对不起，
我不能在留下来了。

爱你，就要放你走，因为机会过了，感觉也会跟着走

我对我自己说的。

生命中令人悲伤的一件事是你遇到了一个对你来说很重要的人，但却最终发现你们有缘无份，因此你不得不放手。------ A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you，only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

Mornington with bro and couz. 2011

2011-08-10T17:41:00.000+10:00

This is one of the must visit destination when comes to visiting Melbourne. i did not go to the Great Ocean Road with the brother and cousin because it was too far and i've been there once. so i arranged a coach trip for them.
But of course, this Mornington trip i would like to be the chauffeur.

It was a hazy day plus winter, so everything was close especially the famous strawberry farm and jam. we were really disappointed but luckily we saw this opening everyday wineyard to have our lunch.

the sun was really warm and we don't feel cold at all, nice wind breezing....
<3

and we got to this famous maze too

Brother and Cousin Australia trip 2011

2011-08-09T21:00:00.001+10:00

i had got lost the momojojo to blog ever since like few months ago.

i know what's the reason.

i might just post up some photos and wouldn't be talking for so much or i might but nehhh it depends.

we shall start from the arrival of brother and cousin, who came all the way from Malaysia for me to celebrate my birthday.

this my room and the view from 20th floor.

Elizabeth Street

And this is the famous Victoria Market.

walking at swanston street to get some food

assisting to buy tram tix

yum cha at shark fin's house

City zoo

Yarra River. i was once walked everyday to back home.

And this is the melbourne city view from Sky Deck , Eureka

Of course coming to Australia i have the obliged to bring them to Sydney to visits the 2 aunties. Sydney trip was first canceled due to the dust storm, but we changed the flight tix and taddaaa, my forth time.

Homecooked dinner by me before they leaving back to KL.

Thanks for coming all the way to accompany me.

你的香气，你的高度，你的纵容，你的玩笑，一一的被带走了....

2011-06-13T09:09:00.000+10:00

我曾經相信　會遇到那個人
或許能把你　代替

答应了我我会很快乐尽量唱着我们的歌在你的世界我偶尔是不同的过客就够了答应了我你也会快乐

没有了你的世界，会是怎样？

2011-06-13T09:05:00.002+10:00

又再次的在这个时间里，

一睁开了眼睛，

有股冲动的想把心里的话，

一一的留在这里。

这样的感觉说长不长，

说短也不短的过了两个月。

谢谢你，

尝试了与众不同的感觉。

谢谢你，

给我带来了不同的欢乐。

谢谢你，

我知道了我要的是什么。

谢谢你，

我了解了我执着的是什么。

真的很不喜欢，

剧终人散的感觉。

为什么要在你心里上，

撒下了很多情绪，

也撒下了很多盐。

很多很多，

一切一切，

也要从这个习惯，

改回成了另一个习惯了。

没有了你的世界，

会是怎样？

A lil tits and bits

2011-06-09T06:35:00.000+10:00

A lil bit about myself besides the studying because of that, all of these had make up my life.

Tea time with Mr. V at Laurent

with his favourite pistachio macaroons and pistachio brulee

Another tea time

New York Cheese cake and i'm on the feeling of Tiramisu

Was seriously craves for oyster again ever since came back from Sydney, bought a tray and trying to do this fresh octopus leg with wasabi soaked in cold water. and of course my home cooked soup

and the rest of the oyster? my first attempt on cheese baked oyster!

A very huge lost if you didn't try the australian breakfast

At Richmond hill cafe

smoked salmon with corn fritters and poach egg on top with special sauce

me likey this...

Good morning once again with breakie post

At St.Ali

My Mexican Cousin - poach eggs with cheese and corn fritters.

Regina Fungi

and this is call Something boring

two poach eggs with two french toasted loaf

haha

My very early birthday gift from Joseph, a DS that i always wanted for cooking mama, because sad to say that's the only game that i know how to play.

won this with 1 buck on an arcade game, Staker!

AHHHHHHHH

LOOK AT THIS ....

and....

A very special dinner

An escapade

2011-06-09T06:10:00.001+10:00

It has been a while i last update. no urge, no feelings, no time.

a very rough post just to share i went sydney with friends.

and of course visiting QVB building

small little lamb for dinner in those cold weather. it was surprisingly cold compare to melbourne's weather.

of course we do enjoy very much at the sydney style "pasar malam",

how i missed that, holding lamb stick with big and small shopping bags!

tada!!

the next day!

yam cha for the brunch

queueing up for the famous emperor bun

and nice weather today!

a very nice weather for shopping!

got pampered by this.

and guess who we saw??

and also meet up with Alan like after 6 or 7 years we last saw each other at British Council

we were all the way from city to Harbour Side Mall for the famous pork rib but sadly it was Saturday and it's definitely fully booked, my bad that i didn't make any reservation.

so we had thai food and guess what? Fire works were playing to make up my night.

the third day!

my favourite place - Fish Market!

and look at how fresh the oyster is!

tada! the finish one

and what's come next?

the tam jiak face

walk around and off to opera house

and Huricane pork ribs here we go!

the last day

famous thai food, Chat Thai for lunch after checking out

感觉。理智

2011-05-13T03:40:00.000+10:00

好久好久都没有在这里写下我的点点滴滴了。
这几个星期里，都忙的透不过起来。再这样的舒服环境里，人也变得了懒散，也发生了很多意象不到的事情。
而我，也渐渐的领悟到自己能不能胜任的事情。
有时候，不是人要去控制，但当事情发生时，有没有能力去消化和解决。
感觉和理智，我会去选着哪一个？在乎人家的眼光吗？我在乎。可是，是否对于错，我应该或不应该吗？我真的没有答案。

我也希望我自己能过的很好。

一个特别的你 2

2011-04-21T03:34:00.001+10:00

It is 3am already and i shouldn't be awake right now, plus the reason that i'm on sick, very bad cough and now flu is on it's way, nose blockage. i hate you.

I should update a lil bit of myself.
i'm doing all good, and kinda liking my new place, to be emphasize, my new room.
well yeap, i do party almost every week. and i am super impressed with my self-determination! fight the alcohol!
but there is also a reason that i have to go party! the BFF's birthday.
Happy belated birthday Robin Yee, and thank you for always be by my side to listen my nag and mumble and etc. oh and always cook for me!

first night celebration at kbox.
6 bottles of hennessy is superbly insane.

cutting cake...

i said, I DON'T WANT TO DRINK!

GROUPIES!

with jiali

what so scary??
so big nostril

woots. a birthday kiss to the birthday boy.

ops and a kiss to me too??

great night

And second night at Lavish.
eventually the birthday boy has better alcohol tolerance compare to last year, as the s.o.s tank don't need to be function.

and the third round, Hollywood.
and i am the one that took care of that birthday boy and the silly boy.

再过几个月，你就要离开这里了。
那时候再也没有人让我撒娇，陪我说废话，陪我斗气了。
祝你生日快乐, 身体健康，事事顺利。
在这段时间里，感谢你陪伴了我，尤其是在我跌倒的时候。
我，都会永远记得你，和你那几首饮歌.

Edit addiction.

2011-04-14T13:55:00.000+10:00

A friend of mine tagged a picture of myself, while i still have this bonny neck. So i was once a very skinny girl, that i envy so much right now, cause i am a big fat giant not a petite anymore!!
From Skinny/bonny to fat/plump/voluptuous.
yea bigger boobies, so what, but do you want big arms and tights and big tummy!
ewwwwww

well this post don't mean anything, i'm just really bored and finding things to post up or else this blog might be the most emotional blog ever.

i figured out this pixelmator is quite easy, not sure is it the same as the photoshop cause photoshop has tooo muchhhh application and i'm so lazy to figure it out.
this pixelmator is much easier.

this is before.
melbourne has known has the most crazy weather. i was trying to show how drastic or contradict the weather is, left side is sunny with blue blue sky, and the right is gloomy thick black cloud.

oh, and this is after edit. i didn't know what i used for this, something like color monochrome. and i don't know how to explain this picture. haha..

ahhh, i like the rainbow sparks.

before. my hair grow really fast. :p

and after.

Besides sit up, any other way to lose tummy and this flabby butterflies arm? can help?

A challenge chapter.

2011-04-10T00:42:00.001+10:00

And so, just exactly like the song playing on the background, open your eyes. you will see who treats you the best or the worst, who's the one who always besides you or sabotage you. Things happen for a reason and yes it did. it wouldn't came out just like that from no where if they are none of them spreading it, rumours or misunderstanding.
We help out because we wanted to help, or we might need their help in one day.
We do our best for the sake of giving the best to others, but not asking for return.
This is going to be a challenge.
I just hope everything will be fine.

In a nutshell.

2011-04-06T02:08:00.002+10:00

It's my first night in my new bedroom. i have so much to talk about this place, a place that i love and hate the most. the reason that i'm moving out from the previous comfort zone because firstly, the rental has increased, i do not want to spend more on that place although i have love this place so much, with all the memories. major reason also because the walking distance from Southbank to city. i wanted to move in to a new environment so badly.
the current house is located at a very ideally nice place. it's in the city. really save my walking distance. of course, i feel bless that i still get to see the nice view that i always love.
the sky the stars, with your song playing, reminds me of you. i always know we are looking on the same moon and stars.
i have know i have no rights to complain about anything. i know i wasn't a tidy person, i laze around so much, however, basic cleanness is what i care the most. this post more likely a self-expressing on how i dislike the housemate's habit. but what i want it's just clean toilet and kitchen. i do not mind to clean up but well, it's our house. most likely i should just pray for what's coming in the future.

it's getting emotional strikes again. not able to stay with sophia babe, a partner in crime, a true friend, a housemate and a person that i always rely on. i really hope that we will still close like how we used to be...
the late night talk, the laughter, the silliness, the make-up talk, the fashion talk, everything and everything. it's been a year plus we've been staying together. the up and down, everything we've been through. i'm sorry that i'm bossy, i'm lazy that you bear with me. thank you and i love you.

I know, i shouldn't complain so much. i'm blessed, i'm glad, i have everything, i have the chance to study abroad, it's all a minor problem.
people been going in and out. they came into your life, they taught you how to be stronger. they gave you challenge, they gave you difficulties, they trained you up. they enlightened you with things that you always stuck a side. they gave you ways to choose.
and they go...

why would u want to come into my life while you are so far a way?

i'm blessed, that i have meet you. a person who cares me and accept for who am i. i know, judges and bias on who you are. i believed that, but, i also want to believed on who you are. trust me, it will be really wonderful when comes to time.

on april fool that day itself, i got a news from malaysia. and it wasn't a prank. grandpa was in a car robbed he was injured. fark that 3 indians who robbed his car. fark them who punched on his face. how can they treat an old man like that???
why people have to be so cruel at this time, while so many disaster and inequality is happening around the world. why can't people be considerate and care enough?

enough of my nag. shall post some happy pictures.
and dozzing off, with you in my dream.

unpack luggages and boxes with clothes. i have no idea how am i going to fit in all these clothes into the wardrobe. too many stuffs and i have to hired mover to shifted my stuff to the new place.
bed frames, mattress and tables, i uninstalled and install back again. tiring.

more bags and small boxes. part of my utilities, you know make up bag, hair dryer stationaries in another box and etc...
always girls...

another big and small luggage.

or my self-portrait? :p

an oversize jumper can always cover up my fat arms and tummy.

happy belated birthday to lee yee (the most right). thank you for being by my side and always download movie and series to me. hehe.

always and always keep that ok. :)

In a nutshell, i know no matter how difficult life it is, i will be strong, although i need a shoulder so badly. the world needs everyone of us, to be strong, to protect the next generations.

lotsa love.

我真的不懂了

2011-03-30T05:12:00.000+11:00

在这凌晨时刻，
好想好想坐在沙滩上，
听着海浪达着，
望上天空的星星，
回想着以前的过去。

人来了，
人也走了，
剧终人散。
他们来，
让我学会怎么接受。
他们走了，
让我学会怎么放下。

困扰，
因为没有方向。
为什么。
回忆又是什么？

我应该向哪里走？
又回到这个尽头？
只是，
我真的不懂了。

Just for you.

2011-03-29T18:59:00.000+11:00

Things are getting better and better.
I hope it goes BETTER more!

Just for you.

A lil bit of touch up.

2011-03-15T14:39:00.001+11:00

Thousand apologies with the photo problem for the CNY album, I was laze around to not upload one by one from iphoto but direct copy the URL and paste it. Should i just get ignore it or upload all over again? ~~so lazy fml.~~

People who are around me noticed how different i was. but i can say I'm all good now, and not to worry.
Should i really start a new year resolution?
~~My new year resolution is not to have a resolution~~

I needa get a job.
I needa do well in all the semester
I really needa meet this counsellor telling them how bad and unwelcome I felt from my classmate, cause they just plain alienated me, and make me don't feel to go to school at all.
I needa settle this house asap, and i hope this new place will make me hardworking. ~~it was just plain bullshit isn't it? you can study at anywhere if you really want to!~~
I needa go to church.
I needa be healthy.
I cannot be laze around anymore.
I must go out.
But not spend money.

So i got my new year resolution done. hehe.

let's try again does the copy paste URL upload photos work.

Dinner done by me to celebrate 1 year 2 weeks anniversary as Housemate with sophia.

I look like this now.

or this

this

My current addiction from this crazy weather. but it was torn now :(

This was my second time at the airport in 2 days back to back. I was supposed to depart on 19th of feb. I renewed my passport and my student visa was at the old one (please don't judge me first as if you can say it's not hard to notice and should have take know because the visa sticks along the passport and NO, my student visa is just a printed paper). And it's impossible for my dad to fly back to home to take the old passport although i don't stay that far from airport.
So i decided to postponed my flight to the very next day, as another friend is flying off with the same flight. (We both bought the Emirates return tix with super cheap deal :p:p:p:p with very GOOD SERVICE)

and i have a companion to back with me! yeay...
i was literally very emo but i did not cry, because i have to leave this comfort zone with friends and family.
on the first time of checking baggage's weight it noted 29.6 kgs (phewwww...) and i didn't want to reopen the luggages cause i'm flying off the next day. what surprisingly is, the second time I weight my baggages and it says 31.1 kgs. ~~(Where the hell the extra few kgs came from? did i brought anything back home? ) TOUCH WOOD~~

so this is when the Kuu's sister sending me off again.

Mummy and aunt

Anyway, last and the least, please add your prayer to the all the Victim, not only Japan but any other country were affected. we might left them out, but your sincere prayer will do a lot of power.

Without you.

2011-03-10T11:21:00.000+11:00

It's been a while i last update. things have been going badly as i expected and secret does not hold anymore. And there are not only one but few. though i can only say, being frank is the best choice, especially to your beloved parent because they are the only one that always by your side, no matter how difficult are you in.
I was in dilemma, chooses between 2 choices. I even seek and ask for the answer, which way should i go? 2 choices were given, one is be frank but you may lose your trustworthiness and respect from other, another one, get it done by yourself but you know it will be a hard path onwards to go. which one will you go for?
I know, it seems like you need a lot courage and guts to confess things that you've been done, that you might lose everything from what you've gained, from parent, from family even from friend. But never too late, it may cause you into real big trouble if things get worse.
I'm glad, to have real friends to advice me, giving a hand, facing it together with me, telling me that it will be all ok. Be truthful, is one thing that you need a lot courage.

Rainbow seems coming out now.
But not, at this age I know I need to face problem, sort it out, or maybe a resolution that I need to do it. Things and issues that I started to handling has become more and more burdened. Place to stay, financial, all and all, things that i does not even need to be bother at the young age.
Indeed, it's still butterflies cause i've moved on on certain things.

Without you, I wouldn't be someone who am I today.

兔年好过年 2011

2011-02-24T16:24:00.001+11:00

我的农历新年其实过得蛮充实的，如果撇开那些无聊的心情。

比起去年的新年，当然感觉会比较不同，不同的是去年的我就要离开一个我完全不认识不熟悉的地方。而今年的分别是我当然知道当回来这地方时，会变的很孤单和无聊。

好像往年一样，在外婆家的午餐团圆饭。

准备着捞鱼生

大妹妹，每天都陪着我走上走下，对不起让你浪费了很多钱：P

大家都准备这拍全家福

然后又想每年一样回祖母家。

大家都忙着准备晚餐。

好笑的是，太多人和有限的空间，我们的晚饭都在车房吃，二十多人需要排队因为只又一间厕所。

开餐咯！

拍照时间

（因为懒惰的关系我只大概放了一些本人喜欢的照片：）

放鞭炮时间到了！

也有小朋友的份，我已不是小朋友了哈哈

重要时刻，那红包！

拿了红包的我啦！哈哈

大年初一

表兄弟姐妹，今年缺少了两位：（

也是宝贝妈咪的生日

所有的面包店当然就没有开咯，只好在商场买了几块蛋糕凑起来变成蛋糕样

我们一家人

到了晚上时间！

看了照片就知道发生什么事了

：P

几为先生小姐把一瓶 gold label 很一瓶 black label 都完了

拍手鼓掌

然后就变成这样。。。

大年初二

大家都睡的不信任事哈哈

当然本小姐也没那么差啦

研究着蜈蚣编

辛苦大姑准备的晚餐，这天就在外解决啦

无聊的脸

又是鱼生

一点都不好吃

回到家

超肥的我

大年初三

因为一些原本的计划都取消了

小姑丈就在他家开始了烧烤会

特地去买的烤炉

吃的津津有味

没看见我？

因为我一直都坐着享用美食哈哈

又是喝酒的时间啦！

大年初四

去了巴生港口的海南村享用了又一次的海鲜美食

今年的过年，过量是酒和海鲜

没有美食的相片，对不起啦

然后就到了我家的收工宴

去年没能出席，因为我已经来到了这里！

偷吃！

捞啊捞！！

又是到了喝酒时间

要晕了

弟弟特意从新加坡飞回来

青梅竹马

好牌！

我的农历新年就这样的过了

虽然都被某些事情影响了我的心情，但最开心的还是能和家人们度过

现在的我，就只能看着相片回忆了

On you.

2011-02-22T15:32:00.002+11:00

The second day I'm here. I do not feel good at all. All i want to do it's just lay on the bed, or just sit on the sofa, staring out the balcony, thinking how comfortable it is while i'm with them, my family. or to someone i like. I have to start use to another habit, changes from another daily routine.

I do not feel good.

Being here all alone by myself. What have I done throughout this 2 months? How much heart have i broken? How painful it is to feel down and stand back up again? How important it is while I don't wanna admit family give me the best. How guilty i am neglecting people that cares me.

No one knows.

No one knows how dilemma it is chose between morality and mentally. No matter how much I love you, I have to go.

Please, faith in Him. Please stay by my side. While you are the Only person i can rely on.

To stay or to leave, i don't know.

2011-02-16T00:53:00.001+11:00

5 more days to go, a mix feeling that i thought i could handle it well, if it that was the last time me. But i can't anymore. i've became so vulnerable and pathetic throughout what had happening in this 3 months time. i've became so weak, and yet missing the old me who can be so cold blooded as i am.
it's about someone, it's about something.
it's about life and it's about people come and go. no one knows the sorrow. no one knows how heartache-ing is that.
No one knows why am i still holding it tight, why am i still doesn't want to accept the fact when i know what is happening.
To stay or to leave, i really don't know.

愚蠢。遗憾。

2011-02-07T21:29:00.001+11:00

今年的农历新年比去年的不一样，
不是特别开心，
而是开心不起来，
原来很多事情，
当你越想要的时候，
你是更得不到的。

今年的我，
因为某些事某些人，
心情从高高的，
跌到谷底。
不想在用这样的心情，
度过我还有的十几天。
为什么你就不能假装的对我好？
为什么就不能让我开心一下下就好？

很愚蠢，
但我不要有遗憾。
很辛苦，
但我不知该怎么办。

告诉我，
我应该怎么做？

Where are you doo

2011-01-31T22:34:00.000+11:00

Got real real pissed and i was suppose to be the happy girl who just came back from somewhere that i really love and wanted to go, a happy girl that got pampered by You, teasing me as if like the first time. argh. and now i'm here, blogging this stupid feeling out, typing random stuff, wanting to hide all the feelings, on how disappointed i am, on how frustrating i am, that i couldn't do anything. i can, but just some of the reason of mine are not allowed. so freaking stupid. i don't want..................
i just want to see You, yes it's You.
where are you? and how can i get you? things getting so far, and all that supports me is my heart and my feelings, supporting me with all i have it in mind.
Tell me where you are, tell me we have the same common thing in mind.

xoxo. doo doo.

My turn over leaves.

2011-01-27T17:28:00.000+11:00

It has been the 5th year i'm blogging, how brilliant blogspot offer the best template and user friendly function, for me to taking this as a medium for my dream and wonderful place, expressing all the sad and happiness i've been through.

it's still the first month of the year, so a little nutshell post shouldn't too late.

The first turn over leaf:

Given the chance to study at overseas has made me gained more knowledge and life experiences. I had become wiser not bad temper as how i used to be.

felt down, and standing back up again is one thing that i had to learn, when i'm in this foreign country all by myself.

thank you to everyone who surrounds me, giving me hand, encouraging me especially to all my friends.

the housemate/besties/partner in crime/shopping partner

thank you for always be with me.

experiencing the winter that we don't have it at equatorial

celebrating the first birthday at a foreign country, without my parent.

The Second turn over leaf:

i got my first tattoo, if the eyebrow tatt is not counted.

not as painful as the eyebrow one. and sometimes i will even forgot the existence of this tattoo, maybe because it locates at a spot that i wouldn't even have the chance to notice. :)

The Third turn over leaf:

My precious laptop has broken down one day, due to too much drama and series consuming. ahaha.

the very lovely parent of mine got this and sent it to me all the way from kl to melb. thank you for the apple overdose.

The Forth turn over leaf:

Notice what hairstyle i got since the first half of last year, or previously few years. always the signature bob hairstyle has finally got rid and i grew it long because firstly is not that cheap as how in kl to just trim it. secondly, a lil bored with the same hairstyle for so many years, and i decided to keep it long.

The Fifth turn over leaf:

The reunited of Yow's family. auntie and uncles from all over the world, Australia, Canada and even cousin from UK.

Loving the warmest deep inside hug especially you know your family are the one who always be there for you.

the Kuu's family portrait. is getting harder for the reunited because slowly we will separated to different places.

The Sixth turn over leaf:

The wedding of Miss Cheryl Lee.

Glad that i got the come back on time to attend your wedding. it's not just a wedding to me, but a another experience i never had before, to see you step into another pathway of your life, seeing you becoming a wife and a mother soon. knowing how capable you are, since the first day i knew you, and i'm very very sure you are still the Cheryl i know.

congratulation once again.

The Seventh turn over leaf:

Photo shooting has became part of my life coincidentally.

welcome again 2011 and hope a great life ahead.

Yuzu 2011

2011-01-26T04:59:00.000+11:00

it's been a month plus i'm back here, slacking and hanging out with friends. was intended to work for dad in this holiday trip but i back off once i got to know how much the work load is.

first gathering dinner with the friend in year 2011.

Yuzu japanese cuisine at The Garden.

unagi skin salad

sashimi platter

New year toast

i can say that i do not like sake

uni with caviar

valcano sushi

some new year dish

wagyu beef grill

雪儿的沙滩婚礼。

2011-01-20T15:33:00.003+11:00

有几年没听华语歌曲了，不是什么香蕉人的关系，纯粹觉得华语歌曲比较难理解，偶尔也有几个好的。

蕭亞軒- 錯的人

这几天都重复听着。

终于有心情写下关于李小姐的婚礼。

三年前认识你，三年后的你踏入了人生的另一阶段。在这三年之间，起起落落，分开结合，有哭的，也有笑的。

是沙滩婚礼，也是圣诞节。

其中一位姐妹

姐妹们都忙着泡制残酷的游戏，

要我们的李小姐，没那么容易！

九年的好友

嫁衣

另一位李小姐，也是伴娘

兄弟团

本小姐

姐妹团

李先生

在ballroom等新娘喝茶仪式

忙了一整天，肚子都饿扁了。

傍晚，李小姐原打算在太阳夕下的时候走aisle.

但是因为喝茶仪式进行得很迟，太阳下山天色也一暗了，

才把一切的行礼进行完。

自由餐地点

大家都很疲倦了

本小姐的晚装，有点奇怪的脸装，

因为已经忙碌了一整天，也没有时间重新化过。

perfect 的婚礼，就是在海滩上看着就进在你眼前的烟花，

超浪漫的，

不要忘了还有99朵玫瑰和一首新郎唱得歌。

姐妹团

一个不用穿高更鞋的婚礼。

超无聊

remember that was 3 years ago. i added you in friendster, while i was browsing around. your picture caught my eyes. and the first thought came my mind, i like her.

you were my first net friend. i never believe that faith has make us together, through this cyber space. trust and friendship has gained when time goes by.

the first meeting up was at dpc. and that was the first sparks, we were no longer need to be apart by this cyber medium.

the second meet up was at prince cafe. and more and more meeting up.

we share the same thought, although we both have the different personality. you taught me how to be strong and independent, which make me grew up so much.

we share the same interest on food and shopping. we chat everyday. we meet up at least once a week. we fell down together. we stand up together. hand by hand.

remember there's once, having ice cream because we both were in the bad mood?

i wish it happen again.

we've been through break up together. holding each other hands, encouraging and praying for each other that we can undergo and overcome.

i'm glad that i was with you, on your daddy's funeral. a glimpse of an eye, 2 years already. hugging you, praying for you, on how impressive how strong you are.

the last person that i'm meeting up a day before leaving this country to pursue my dream, is you. knowing that you will always be with me, has make me calm.

our relationship does not change, even i'm on the other side of the world. with 3 hours difference, you are always the first one who pops out, Hi. sharing everything, although we are apart. just like how we were, side by side.

and now, you have entered another stage of your life, a stage that more and more people had coming in to your life. i'm really happy that i attended your wedding, taking part of it. this is what's more than happy.

the mandarin post that you had reminded me, always and always running through my head, how sincere how correct it is.

although the title of yours have changed from miss lee to mrs. ng. but you are still the cheryl that i always love and care. praying for the best on your marriage, and soon being a mother.

love you always and i'm always the jimui of yours.

双子座

2011-01-13T14:25:00.001+11:00

双子座

这辈子最疯狂的事
就是爱上了你
最大的希望
就是有你陪我疯一辈子

双子不轻易爱
一颗心总是定不下来
没有足够的吸引力
是没办法使他们将爱情进行到底的
爱情是疯狂的
正因为它容易让人陷入感性的漩涡、失去自我
双子刻意远离
可一但陷入就无可救药的执着
所以..
既然爱了就不要变心
就不要中途离场
就让彼此深爱着对方
一起感受爱的酸甜苦辣

你听到了吗？

2011-01-12T02:25:00.001+11:00

昨晚，
重复听着一首不起眼的歌，
歌词的内容，述说了遥远的你，
听到我的呼喊吗？
你听到吗？
听到心里多么的想要，
一波又一波的难关阻挡着前面，
一直在心里的问号，
一一的搬出来了，
你真的听到吗？

从没有过的感觉，
是爱又是恨。
喜欢被呵护的，
喜欢完整的我，
包容我的全部。

恨遥远的距离，
恨没有完整的答案，
恨触摸不到
感受不了的期盼。

听着听着，
眼眶红了，
流湿了我的脸。
你听到了吗？

Talking to the moon - Bruno Mars.

Cheryl hen's night. Red Lips. 2010 Xmas Eve.

2011-01-10T16:01:00.001+11:00

Music mode : The Whitest Boy Alive

So this was my first time joining friend's wedding, my besties indeed. I always left out writing a post special dedicating to her, but guess this is the best one for you, congratulation on your newly wed and shower with cares and loves from your hubby and all of us.

Her wedding was held at Avilion, Port Dickson. I'm glad that i could came back earlier for your wedding, i wouldn't wanna be alone at Melbourne on your big day.

Instead of joining the crowd at KL on Xmas eve, it was her Hen's night. Theme of the night is tuxedo with red lips, and she's the pretty princess surrounded with hensem us. gagaaa i suggested the theme! hehe.

the 9 years bff

karyen, the bride's biological sister :P

here comes the bride

the hensem's

a game to play on hen's night, selling the heartshape balloon by the bride. this is our first customer from ktv next door.

second customer :)

Doo doo

2011-01-06T02:36:00.000+11:00

It's the second day, i'm missing you, while i was slacking packing half way to go to Royal Hutan Belum early morning tomorrow which i had no idea where is this place is.
I don't hide my feeling like how i did last time. I should get used to it, with the separation and the distance somehow. it's gonna be a long way to go.

Good night doo doo, sleep tight and don't let the bed bug bite.

F and L my life.

2010-12-31T14:31:00.005+11:00

Hi,

Every year of today (i've been blogging for maybe 3 years?) i will actually write down a maybe new year resolution or something about what i had did throughout the whole year. so on the very last day of the year in the early morning, i have this urge to write it down either one of these, or maybe both of i can still thinking of what to type and what's on my mind (what do i want or what i've been done). :p

So i went all the way to another country with new environment all by myself, not literally by myself cause the going-to-be housemate, miss Sophia Tan has waiting for me over there to look for places for us to stay. Thank you for being with me, and i'm blessed and glad that we turn out to be good friend and is happy that we stay together, with different lifestyle and different habits (sorry that sometimes i'm a lil bit lazy to do the dish washing, teehee). all and all, thank you for being my side ALL THE TIME.

about schools, is another thing i'm not really happy about. fyi, i don't like ang mohs. so basically i don't interact with them that much, or maybe no, unless i really have to. schoolmates that i hang out with is a Somalian and maybe 2 Vietnamese born aussie. nothing much bout schools, and i'm doing Public Relations, again, if you have always been wondering.

Friends, always heard that Melbourne is like another Malaysia. ya, it proves that. because i still hang out with Malaysian or maybe one or two, or maybe three singaporean or chinese from china.

meeting a lot of different friends from different states, especially Penang (my favourite state in Malaysia) and JB.

the dialect that i usually use is Mandarin and with that bunch of people, Hokkien is what i heard the most, of course English. ~~hate watching tv when i get the chance because i hate listening to English, make me feel so schooling and stressing out.~~

My life? i can cook, mostly chinese food. haven't been really using my oven ever since i moved in. can't really bother baking or grilling because i'm the only one who staying at home most of the time. i've gain 4 kgs, but i look so plump and fleshy. jacket and coat is the best thing in the world, also the suckiest thing in the world. because they covered up your plump body, but you will eventually eat more and more because you always know that there is a coat/jacket waiting for you to cover up your fat arms and tummy.

ermm, i've been start drinking quite a lot. for a girl, yea i can actually drink a lot. Don't surprise if you haven't seen i'm red or blushing because i don't get to get red even i drink methylated spirit,i prolly will just die immediately but won't get red.

i had a boyfriend, for 2 months plus. things turn out to be unexpectedly painful compare what i've experienced before. guess that's part of the lesson and experience every human have been through. i'm all good now. and i'm happy now too (hello, are you there? i'm waving at you and you know who you are) that someone cares me and make me feel that i needed.

oh, some tragedy happens too.

I broke my nose, it bleeds a lot, and i do it like i'm sneezing. ok it happened on one night, after i've done washing up and going to bed, as i have switch off the lights at the living room and i couldn't see a thing. after i hopped on my bed, i realized that i haven't pee. so i decided to get up and went to pee. i was wearing a puffy sandles and of course the floor is covered with carpet, i was literally dragging my feet because i really just wanna go pee and get in to my bed asap. and my shoes is all over the place. so, i felt down and i had no time to respond and the split second, my face is on the floor, without my hand supporting my body.

i went to sneezed it out the blood at the toilet bowl and went to bed, in ease. the very next day, i texted the housemate telling her that i had broke my nose, but she couldn't accompany me to hospital and it was Sunday. so i grab a cab all by myself and have a minor check up, proving that my nose just got swollen. and thank you, my face is all in one piece now, don't worry and thank you for caring.

Another tragedy is, I DON'T HAVE PERIOD FOR ALMOST 5 MONTHS. ahahahhahahahha. ~~AND NO, I'M NOT PREGNANT~~.

and OHH, ~~i'm LITERALLY A GUY~~ .

HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH. i would have think that without having period for 5 months is really an oh yeay, because i won't have to worry changing pads while i'm taking a train or walking down to the city, or maybe having mood swing, not like i have.

so after 5 months of being TOO carefree, i've decided to go check up, with the student insurances, i don't have to pay for the pathology, just the consultation fees and ultrasounds.

so the result is, POLY-CYSTIC OVARIES SYNDROME. my testosterone level is higher. and i'm a GUY!

crazy.

this syndrome is half common happen to the females, and i will have high chances of obesity (NO WONDER I've GAINED SO MUCH WEIGHT AND I CAN WEAR SIZE M NOW laaaa!!!!!), diabetes or maybe infertile.

and again, i'm all good now, my second period came. thank to the tap water in melb, make me feel so ease without spending a dollar on buying pads. hahahahhahaha.

and i'm here back to Malaysia now for holiday and i'll be back after Chinese new year. and i hate being at home because i hate the nagging, i hate the crowd, i hate to go to the war once i open my eyes every morning, i hate being order, i hate being a driver, and i hate so much so much so much, although the shopping is really good.

thank you for reading my essays with lotsa grammar mistake. wtf.

_________________________________________________________

and seriously had forgotten to post the resolution thing right after i click 'publish post'.

my new year resolution is:
i really have to work hard for my academic, not like i got bad results.
i need to work, to earn pocket money, so that i can spend more.
wishing all the plans and path that i had made to come true.
to get a bf? HAHAHHHAHAHA. ~~maybe i'll have one soon.~~
stay healthy and happily. cut down drinking and instant noodles. thank you.

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAVE A BLAST YEAR AHEAD to those who read this boring blog of mine.

THANK YOU FOR STAYING WITH ME.

*smooch on the cheek*

Grand Dorsett family wedding dinner.

2010-12-30T05:27:00.000+11:00

A wedding dinner with my family after i was back home on the same day from the besties wedding at Avillion, PD. I was a gathering with the dad's side family too.

sister

yours truly

a drumstick before heading to dinner

with the brother

kuu's girls

Grand Dorsett hotel (formerly Sharaton subang)

the cousin and the sister

事物。改变

2010-12-29T04:35:00.001+11:00

人与事物一切一切都在变了。
回来了一个月，
原以为什么都没变，
其实是自己错了，
或者都是在自我安慰。

每天驾车会经过的路变了，
朋友的友值也变了，
听说的长久爱情也变质了。
原来什么事情都会改变的。

原本以为的友情，
其实因为长久的距离拉远了。
原本以为的爱情，
其实因为时间久了而变淡了。

我和她，
也因为时空的距离，
也因为她踏入了另一个人生的阶段，
慢慢的疏远了。

听说他们和他们的故事，
曾经是让人多么的羡慕，
也慢慢的分开了。

而我，
也因为个人的因素，
接受了我没有想到会做出的决定。

真希望，
我看过了，
我听过了，
我感受过了，
我经历过了，
的决定，
是不会错的吧。

Life is about making decisions.

2010-12-22T18:27:00.000+11:00

By Hayashi Lim

I believe.

2010-12-21T15:30:00.000+11:00

By Brian Sio.

Of my way.

2010-12-18T14:50:00.001+11:00

Listening to contemporary itunes while downstairs are playing the classic piano pieces, writing back about entry how have i been going on eve since i come back. dad has been making noise about i'm planning to go back to work, he say that i should catch up with friends, but too bad, another thing that makingmesohateaboutit is because i don't have any car and i'm suck in driving manual.

so last two weeks was a whirlwind of squeals and hugs about my return, i planned so much and i kept quiet not even updating my bb and fb status, on how bad and messy the packing is, rushing here and there to get what the parent and friends want and need.

5 days at penang was fun. and first time for staying so long with the brother on a trip, without parent. thank you all my friend for the hospitality and food, and the unforgettable food poisoning due to too much consumption of spicy and junk food.

i've made a lot of friends and neglected a lot of old friends,too, for which i feel terrible.
i wanted to catch up with friends that i haven't been seeing them for so long, not to say the awkwardness, or what might other think about me.
perhaps shall say people who knows me, know me well.

i got a boyfriend as people say i seems got so much hurt compare to the previous or the previous previous one, good and bad memories,
he's nice in person but stuck in the minded, move on, now i'm back to being single again.

i used to got tipsy or high almost every weekend, okay now back to non alcohol day, or the max consumption of 2 pint of beer, most reason, i'm driving.
lifestyle? fusion. the melbourne and the malaysia's.

so whatever.
clock striking to pm i want to go shower now.

Sydney Second.

2010-12-14T14:54:00.002+11:00

So so so so long didn't update my blog. and the Sydney post as promised. i actually wrote the Sydney post at my text edit pad, but i have no time to transfer the photos from my camera to laptop.
can i just copy and paste the text ? haha.

(i had this post like 2 weeks after the sydney trip, and now i'm posting it after 2 months. so proud of my slackness )

i was disconnected with the cyber world for the pass 2 weeks. it's a sudden decision that i received a text from aunt asking me to go to her house at Sydney to do some garage cleaning and then, i booked the air ticket straight away. didn't know her house doesn't have internet connection!! does she still living in 19th centuries? and my only device to connect the world is my blackberry, which i forgot to bring the charger and all i can do is use the cable to charge my phone.

and so, BECAUSE of i'm using this stupid macbook pro, the desktop manager does not work well with my blackberry as modem, so guilty that i have to troubled the bf and some other friend to assist me, and even calling the operator for almost an hour.

and so many things i'm proud of is i managed to clean up the garage and washing the toilets and bathroom with a stinks. AND also the very first time of driving alone to the city via gps. to be honest, i did not know how to use the gps, and i always got confused with the turn left and turn right in 500m! how far is 500m? number is my huge weakness. i'm good at driving, but not the reading.

and i get to the city and get back home! so proud of myself, can't help.

managed to go to fish market that i missed it at the previous trip with the housemate and i'm LOVINGGGGGG fish market! with the fresh OYSTER!!

my unexpected reward! :D

OH! I'M HAVING SUPER GOOD TIME AT PENANG FOR 5 DAYS!!!!!!

haha.

Of lil bit update.

2010-12-05T04:01:00.001+11:00

Currently blogging in my home sweet room, after left this bed for almost a year. i'm back to my home country again. to be honest plus a lil bit hate to admit it, i have a lil bit missing melbie. well, for sure is the weather. not sure because i had adapt well with the coldness of melb's weather, i feel sick with the stickiness of humidity. but of course, i born with this weather, and i'm pretty sure i will get used to it very soon.

missing the housemate so much. i know she went through the hardest life right now, while i'm not right beside her. worrying bout her on how she's doing. i'm proud to say that i am so much stronger compare to any other one, standing up and being alone, coping with what had happened, and i really hope that she can do it, just like me, if you are reading this. you know you have me right by your side and i will always love you. be patient, and you will be a better better person.

missing the favourite bubble tea, missing friends that making me laughing out loud.

life back home is the same like how it used to be. driving everywhere, helping parent to sort things out, siblings messing around, or laughing around together. used to be surrounded by friends, and now i'm back to family's hug.
someone told me this, which i think is good.
studying overseas is actually to train up connection and social skills, how are you going to face people that around you especially your friend, who is the good one and the bad one, who are the trusted one who are not. we couldn't have learn this.

come and say hi to me if you are at KL. :)
and i will post up my second visit to Sydney in 2010.

Dear letter

2010-12-01T13:14:00.000+11:00

I was distracted by something, a thing that will take 2 years long. nothing to do with academic, or my health and family, or the stay at here.
It was about someone, someone who are really new into my life. but to start a chapter, it will only happen in 2 years time.
Sound silly, why wouldn't i go for it, right now, right here?
People have to accept what decision they had made, and 2 years is the decision for both of us to stand.

Hello there,
Guess i have to use this style to write in the future time. it's a very new thing to me, snail mail. haven't been doing this for ages and i'm not sure how long can i can be communicating with this way. i'll try.
A simple photo comment, and i get to know someone that i really click of. and, nice meeting you again.

From, me

A thing done and a thing made ♥

Timing.

我的点点滴滴

My 23rd birthday

爱你，就要放你走，因为机会过了，感觉也会跟着走。

Mornington with bro and couz. 2011

Brother and Cousin Australia trip 2011

你的香气，你的高度，你的纵容， 你的玩笑，一一的被带走了....

没有了你的世界， 会是怎样？

A lil tits and bits

An escapade

感觉。理智

一个特别的你 2

Edit addiction.

A challenge chapter.

In a nutshell.

我真的不懂了

Just for you.

A lil bit of touch up.

Without you.

兔年好过年 2011

On you.

To stay or to leave, i don't know.

愚蠢。 遗憾。

Where are you doo

My turn over leaves.

Yuzu 2011

雪儿的沙滩婚礼。

蕭亞軒- 錯的人

双子座

你听到了吗？

Cheryl hen's night. Red Lips. 2010 Xmas Eve.

Doo doo

F and L my life.

Grand Dorsett family wedding dinner.

事物。改变

Life is about making decisions.

I believe.

Of my way.

Sydney Second.

Of lil bit update.

Dear letter

你的香气，你的高度，你的纵容，你的玩笑，一一的被带走了....

没有了你的世界，会是怎样？

愚蠢。遗憾。